Dear Blog,

So, I really do have an excuse of why I haven't been blogging. We got rid of the internet at our casa...which is rather liberating, but also limits me from doing things that I want to be doing, such as blogging and reading other people's blogs!!! I'm blog deprived. Sad, I know. Okay, now that I have explained such atrocities, I will write something real.

Lately I have been feeling as though I am in somewhat of an 'early-life' crisis. I have been questioning everything, feeling a little depressed and exhausted, and I think that I have been pushing people away. I keep trying to figure out why I have been feeling this way and how I can fix it and I don't think that there is much that I can do except keep myself busy because I think the reason I'm feeling all of this is that I'm stressing myself out too much over miniscule things that I should just let be. But how? How do you stop yourself from worrying over things? Is it even possible?

I've also noticed that I have been losing what seems like myself. I don't do things for me anymore. I don't sit and watch the sunset and read or go hiking or whatever! All I do is worry about school and go to work and by the time I am done I am so exhausted that I just go home and lay in bed. Whaaat??? Not okay. I need to be more active. I just don't feel...alive. I wonder if anyone else feels this way.

Maybe I just need a change.

I think the moving thing will be good for me. Jessie and I will be moving in with Bri and Aisha for the summer (which I'm really excited about) and then after that Jessie will be moving to Phoenix (which I cannot bring myself to think about otherwise I will be in tears in seconds), and I'll be moving in with my sweet Lynda, which I couldn't be more excited about.

I'm going to start making myself day-by-day plans to distract myself from this depressive mood I have found myself in. First thing? Yoga. Tomorrow. 6:45am. Which means I will be going to bed EARLY tonight.

And now, after much rambling, I bid adieu.

I love...

PostSecret. I think it's the greatest thing ever. I think this world needs more honesty, even if it is anonymous.

I also love discovering new things about yourself, even if they are silly or stupid, things that you've always known but could never put your finger on or perhaps something that is going to help you be happier.

I really love a good book with an imaginative story. The kind of book that you cannot put down and the kind of story where you finish a chapter on your way to class and you spend the rest of said class daydreaming about what it would be like to be living in that book, in that time, with those characters.

I love the idea of feeling wanted or needed. The idea of finding someone who wants nothing but you and would devote themselves to you. I think that would be nice.

I love boys with long hair. But also boys with short hair. Shoot. I think I just love boys. But seriously, boys who can rock the long hair, definitely attractive. On that note, I also love beards...and stubble/scruff/unshaved faces.

I love to travel. But not the fly to New York City and stay in a fancy hotel travel. The uncharted traveling. The kind that you just go - and figure it out from there.

I love this quote:

"A traveller.

I love his title.

A traveller is to reverenced at such.

His profession is the best symbol of our life.

Going from - toward;

It is the history of every one of us."

-Henry David Thoreau

I'm Alive!

I have been awfully anti-computer lately. I swore I was going to get better about the whole blogging thing and it just didn't happen! Well, things are a-changin'! I will be better now, I promise! I'm in a bit of a rush at the moment...I have to finish some Chem homework (bleh), shower and get ready for work and eat some lunch before I die from starvation. So, instead of a long writing entry, I'll just resort to a couple recent-ish pictures!

This is what I do on a Friday night...how sad.

This is my new watch! I looovvveee it. That is all.

And last but not least, baby Snitch (AKA my god-kitten) it getting so much bigger!

Oh right, I have a blog.

Dear blog, (where the hell did the term 'blog' come from anyway?)

I have been neglecting you so. I am quite sorry. I will now begin to update you on life in 2011.

I think I left off on how amazing my job was...and I am so happy to say that I still adore every aspect of it. Except of course when people come in and order drinks that Starbucks makes up and when I tell them we don't have that they roll their eyes at me and I want to tell them to fuck off and go drink their sugar across the street.

Christmas wasn't very exciting, however it was lovely seeing my mom and brother and the Baker's.

I got a new phone. Droids are way too much technology for me to handle.

Janae and Baby J came to see me for a night. I love it when they're here.

New Year's kind of sucked for me. I went to my friend Jill's which was fun, but it also marks a year that I haven't seen my dad. Bleh.

I have an entire stack of books to read and I am so excited for them. I'm reading Holidays on Ice by David Sedaris now and it is hilarious! The Notorious Dr. August is next, followed by The Picture of Dorian Gray (one of my favorites) and a few others. Have I mentioned how much I love working at a bookstore?

Flagstaff is cold. I miss summer.

I love Scrabble. Especially when played with Laiken and Jessie.

I have no other updates except that I have got to be better about this writing thing. Oh boy.